with my comp wtf right! ^^ It's been a weird 2011, ugh. But it pass so mother fucking fast.
I could still remember the start day I started school. Hmm, maybe I didn't do much during
2011. What's new for 2012? I can't wait to grow up but also I don't want to.
They always say follow your heart right?
But the problem is how do you even know which answer belongs to your heart or your mind?
How do you even tell. I know somehow the answer would be by taking the risk but what if
it isn't worth the fall? How do you know whether is it worth it? I don't want to get hurt again.
It hurts falling. Especially when there's no one there to catch you when you're falling.
I'm afraid. Does this make sense? Who do I go for advises? Why is it so hard to trust?
And hey you. You wouldn't be reading this. But I just want to rant some things here cause
I'm afraid of telling you. Wtf right, cause you seem so happy now and I don't want you to be
hurt. Just fuck you. It's unfair where you always compare me and me last time. I know I was
wrong last time but do you have to treat me the same way I treated you. Don't you realize
you've been hurting me? Haven't you hurt me enough? It just seems like I'm never enough
for you. I just want this little time from you. Is it that difficult? I just want you to care.
Okay just think about it, did your mother fucking attitude change? Did you ever bother
caring for me. Or the only thing you cared about now is your mother fucking asdfghjk "family"
I can't express how much hatred I have for you. Or maybe is this sadness? Fuck, I'm a mess.
A huge fucking one.
And you're leaving. Mentally leaving. What should I do now? Should I hold on or should I
let go? Should I care or should I close an eye? Should I let it affect me? But I don't know what
to do without you. Cause you seem perfectly fine and happy without me. And no, I don't
what to be angry or sad. Maybe I'm happy cause you're happy. Just remember I'll be there
when you're at your lowest. You may not need me but I'll just be here.... Maybe you won't
notice or you never will cause I'm pure invisible to you.
I shouldn't be worrying about all this now. SCHOOL'S MOTHER FUCKING ENDING. AND
I'LL BE MOTHER FUCKING FREE. I'll go to work and earn money and forget about all this
shit. Haha. I love my friends. :) Josie Lim, Don Chi and Kerwin Chia! <3
HEHEHEHE <3
BFU AND BFF.
Sister. <3
xx, Justsoheartache.
Why does everybody seems to be forgetting me?
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