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I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. ― Marilyn Monroe

April 23, 2013

Trying to figure out. Dying to figure it all out.

Hey guys! :) Hmm it's been kind of long i guess idk. Sorry for not updating, wanted to blogged on Sunday but my comp went a little crazy so nopeeee. Here's what happened during the week!

Nothing interesting just another life of a secondary school student.

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Last last Friday.
Went cycling with the guys aft school.




And cycled to Punggol End for Sakura. Which isn't really good actually, not as nice as expected. Nope I don't hold high expectations but I guess going to Sakae sushi is much more worth it.





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Last last Saturday.
Was suppose to meet up with Kwan after tuition but she got her plans so I went ahead with Josie and Marcus to J8.


And we watched The Crood which was totally awesome!!! CHAING CHAING CHAING!



I felt like a light bulb :( Stupid Don who couldn't make it. Long bus ride home myself, it was nice but lonely hahaha. But it's alright I guess because I couldgetusedtothisloneliness.

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Last Last Sunday.
Head out to Anchorvale CC Mac to study with Kwan!






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Last Monday - Friday. 
School sucks. End of story.


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Last Friday.
Went out with Kwan aft school! Was suppose to skip LCE period but got caught by a stupid teacher zz. Had lunch with mummy at Plaza Sing then head home to change and out again!




Head to 313 and Scape to get Kwan's lost fish eye lens and also I wanted to get my cousin some charms for her bracelet :)






Oh we left 313 and went to Vivo for Marche!!!!!! :D Thanks Don for helping us to make the call on whether there's space at Vivo or not. Because 313 was FREAKING FREAKING FREAKING crowded. ok la the queue was just really long.

Oh and mummy gave me my own very credit card :) That explains the shopping. Because Kwan and I are both kind of cash tight now and so now I only have credit. But they spelt my name wrongly though :( It was spelt as Kristie Kwan. huhuhu




My cutie Kwan :)


And tada!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm Marche virgin no more!!!!!!

My smoke salmon crepe. Which I'm craving for real badly now :(

And on top is Kwan's potato thingy, and the hot dog is damn good.








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Oh and we did a little shopping before heading to Marche to have out late dinner.


Kwan's idea to take picture of our future cars hahaha wtf




And home sweet home :) For me. Kwan went to meet her friends while I was headed home.

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Last Saturday.
Woke up around 7 plus in the morning for work! Yes, I'm working again :) But not full time though, not as hardcore. Just every Saturday morning. Don's mum let me work in her childcare haha the irony. Oh. How. I LOVE kids :') But real thankful for the job because at least I've got some extra cash!

Came back and took a short nap and went to bathe and dressed for tuition. IKR. I was really tired gosh. I think I just have to get used to it. No more late movie Friday night with Kwan alr :(



Haha. Cannot believe I still got time to take pictures when I was alr late for tuition.
Rushed out of the house and ran for the freaking bus. I ran like I was running for my freaking life goddamn. And I was so out of breath (consequences for always skipping PE serve me right haha) that I dropped my fucking purse and all the fucking cards scattered argh fuck. 

Hate rushing. HATE. Ok, I shouldn't take pictures next time if I knew I have to run for the damn bus.

For POA whatsapp group

Met marcus at Nex and off to play nation!!!!!!





Went to get Kitty a new polariod cam because hers was spoiled. And we quickly ordered our meal at play nation because we were hungryyyyyy. Or maybe just me haha.








End around 9 plus and went for our polariods!



Thanks Marcus for scanning them :)




Head to the cathay to grab a drink and walked abit.


And home sweet home :)

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Last Sunday.
Haha you wouldn't want to know what I did last Sunday because out of 5. I slept 3/5 of the day. You can't blame me because I only had 5 hrs of sleep on saturday :( I'm a tired girl. Tired of school, studies, everything, anything, life.

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So.......... How's life been you could say. I'll answer, just the way it is, life sucks. But I'm still working and struggling my way through. Trying to find out purpose in life, trying to find out what are my goals, hobbies and interest, trying to find out what I wanna be when I grow up, trying to figure out will I be able to cope and do well, trying to find out what went wrong in me, trying to find out how to improve a better relationship between others and myself. And yes, I may not look like I'm thinking but goddamn. The lines you see on my hands aren't fake. (fyi daddy says the more lines you have on your palms, the more you think) And I hardly say it out, well, you're reading a blog of someone who has trust issues hahahaaahaha. or maybe it's not that funny. Sorry if I type this out as a chuck because people hardly read chucks on your blog and it will be alright if you just scroll past this and not bother. But if you actually read the chucks then thanks I guess.

I don't think I can say I'm a thinker or a dreamer though. Because stuff I usually think about are mostly negative. Haha I often wonder why haven't I had depression yet. I have to think about happy stuff. Hmmm maybe thinking about rainbow and unicorns would be nice hahahaha. I don't know if I hate thinking or not but sometimes, I really just wanna run away from my thoughts and everything basically. I would run away from myself if it's possible. I would run away from everything, and would fly away if I could.

If only I could.



xx