I think I'm going crazy

crazy

ˈkreɪzi/

informal

adjective

1. 1.

   mad, especially as manifested in wild or aggressive behaviour.

   "Stella went crazy and assaulted a visitor"

   synonyms:

   mad, insane, out of one's mind, deranged, demented, not in one's right mind, crazed, lunatic, unbalanced, unhinged,unstable, disturbed, distracted, mad as a hatter;

I think i'm going crazy 
I think i'm mad inside my head 
I think i'm driving myself insane 
I think i'm out of my fucking mind 
I think i'm a deranged timebomb
I think i'm suffering from dementia due to distress 
I think i'm not in the right mind
I think i'm crazed on my thoughts 
I think i'm a lunatic 
I think i'm mentally unbalance
I think i'm acting on my unhinged mind 
I think i'm unstable 
I think i'm a little bit disturbed 
I think i'm too distracted 
I think i'm mad as a hatter 

Do they?

status

ˈsteɪtəs/

noun

1. 1.

   relative social or professional position; standing.

   "an improvement in the status of women"

How do we even put a status on someone? 

Best friend/friend/boyfriend/girlfriend/acquaintance/stranger

Friend haha friend, how do people call one another that so easily? 

'Oh she's my friend and he's my friend!' ugh

Do we really know the person no matter how long you've known them? Is it true that what kind of person he/she claims to be is really true? After months or years of observing, is it him/her true self? His/her real face and not the double one. Are they true to you? Do they have the trueness to own the status of being called a 'friend'. 

Do they appreciate Do they care Do they love Do they smile when you've accomplished something good Do they immediately reach out for you when you're at your lowest or maybe just a mood swing Do they help Do they try Do they initiate Do they accept who you really are Do they look past your flaws Do they cry along with you Do they laugh along with you

Do they?

Do they just want the best for you or do they just want the best from you

everybody is fucking crazy

i'm having the period of your time where you normally think about life 

and it is 8 fucking am in the morning so i should be blabbering but i'm still thinking 

i used to admire how stars shine down from the cloudless sky 

how two very different people meet somehow and somewhat 

how we wouldn't know the choices we didn't make

but now the stars are just little things that pops out from that piece of darkness

they might just have met by a coincident or they didn't have a choice anyway 

imagining and playing the scene in my head of the choices i didn't get to experience 

fate is a funny word and so is destiny both delusional fantasies you try to create 

so if someone believes in fate or destiny they're probably crazy

spending their time self-plotting situations in their brains

but who doesn't imagine about crazy things

if they were someone else

if their at a different place/time/universe

if a random stranger across the road winks at you 

or even if a celebrity is there in your sexual thoughts

everybody is fucking crazy 

crazy like mad lunatic psychotic crazy

we are all crazy here 

blogging about bangkok trip 17-20 march 2015 in a few bits